Wednesday, November 30, 2011

I Have Root Chakra Issues

It’s a bold statement, but it’s true. I own my problems. A few weeks ago, a friend of mine was talking about the Landmark Education, which helps you realize your deep-rooted issues, and began talking about her experience. I waited patiently, and then told her I knew mine: I don’t feel worthy of money, and I am afraid people seeing straight through who I am now and see the 14-year-old girl quivering inside. Not many people, however, know their problems, or can own them outright to acquaintances and friends.

With that said, I always have a positive outlook on life. I am no longer a scared 14-year-old girl (although she does crop up occasionally in my self-esteem), but a proud, loving & loved married woman who owns two businesses. I have changed my lifestyle from funny bones to green smoothies and will never look back, but there is always that fear. I try my best to look fear in the eye and chase it away as quickly as possible, but some days it threatens to never leave! Fear ishealthy. It helps us to understand certain situations and recognize danger, but often times it isn’t necessary. 

When I was younger I was afraid of the ocean. I grew up with summers on a murky lake, full of soft sand and clay, sunsets and mountains. Seashells were mysterious and sharks could kill you at any moment – so I stayed clear. My dad, a scuba diver since birth, always tried to get us to go with him. I remember being 5-years-old and watching him jump off our boat and into the ocean. Mom and I ate PB&J sandwiches as I watched his bubbles disappear. We would watch for what seemed like hours, for his bubbles to reappear (and yes he was alone, a lot of rules have changed in scuba since then!). Finally, his bubbles would return to the surface and in his neoprene covered hands would be strange creatures with claws. In my mind I had no business being in a land where bubbles disappeared and strange creatures live (the same creatures, who hours later, would scream while being boiled alive in our kitchen…. I still don’t eat lobster). NO THANK YOU.

Then one day, things changed. My 13-year-old brother got certified while on a work vacation with my dad. Now, I am not athletic, and with many people I am not competitive. But being seven years his senior, there was no way my little brother would upstage me. I called home one night in September and asked for the first time if I could take the scuba class offered in college. Three days later my dad took me shopping for my first pair of fins.

Needless to say, I looked fear in the face, with a slight mix of competition, and dove into the ocean blue, never looking back. Six years later, I visually hunt for octopi and sharks (my favorites)!

There are many days, however, when this bravery isn’t present. Doubt always has a way of creeping into your soul, especially when you start of on a new venture. Journey to Hope could be one of the scariest things I’ve done. Doubt crops up everywhere: Will we find grants to fund our efforts? Will people like my idea? Will anyone believe in my mission? Am I even worth a salary, or the praise I receive?

But that is doubt. And I am not doubts biggest fan. I believe in a strong handshake (especially in women), I believe in confidence, and I believe in being true to yourself. I do not believe in letting doubt sink in too far. Without truth, confidence and handshakes, doubt will grow to be bigger than yourself and you will lose track of your dreams.

Although I have a few deep seated root chakra fears (Am I fat? Is my inner 14-year-old showing? Does anyone even read this blog?), I am still positive!!! I look fear and doubt in the face and try to laugh: loudly! As a theater major I learned to fake it until you believe it.

So here’s to faking it! Here’s to chasing fear, hunting octopi, and always trying to lasso that positive attitude. Because if you do, maybe, just maybe, we will create reality from our dreams!

As always,
May you embody love, speak truth & perceive kindness!

Tuesday, November 29, 2011

Thanksgiving week always gives me amazing blessings, joys & adventures!!! First of all, it is my birthday week, which is always a blast. I got so many wonderful gifts of love, as well as some fun material gifts (a HUGE octopus necklace, ornaments, and a cooking class!). But more importantly, I was able to spend time with my wonderful family. I could not be more blessed, not only with the family that I’ve always known, but with my husband and in-laws who are such an amazing addition to our family!!

Highlights of the week: a class with Lauren Egavian on Thanksgiving day, a chakra cleanse with Jaqui Bonwell (seriously, check her out!!), cousin day in Boston, seeing old high school friends, an engagement party for one of my favorites, and finding a tree topper for our first Christmas tree.

Journey to Hope has so many adventures lying in the weeks ahead. Please check out our benefit class on December 18th @ Mid-Cape Raquet Club at 8:30am!!!

Also, please take a look at our training section, as we are still looking for more volunteers. We will begin teaching in January with 4 new classes added and would love help spreading the love & light of yoga.

As always,
May you embody love, speak truth and perceive kindness,

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

Dear 25th year,

I wanted to take a moment to thank you for everything you have done, been and ever will be. You were the year that changed my life, and I know that it can only improve and get better with age.

This year, you helped me found a non profit organization, graduate with my master’s degree from Cambridge College, graduate from my yoga teacher training from the Yoga Loft, watch my baby brother graduate from high school and my cousin graduate from Salem State. We got engaged together and then I married the love of my life (!!!) all before Christmas.

I learned a lot about myself during this year. I learned that I am brave enough to start a business from scratch because I believe the people in Cape Cod need better access to yoga.

I learned way too much about idioms and how to write an amazing graduate thesis on teaching idiomatic expressions to English language learners. I finally understood the difference between being a teacher and an educator, of which I am the former.

I learned the value of commitment, and what it means to be a life partner. I learned a lot about communication, vows and love.

I learned about blogging, technology, social media, business marketing and telephone marketing. I learned about promoting myself as a business and constantly being on the look out for more opportunities.

I learned that I am much braver than I think I am.

I learned that with a little support and a lot of love, you can get anywhere. AND I learned that even without the support and the love, manifesting a positive attitude and putting dreams into actions will help you achieve any dream.

I learned how to cook. American and Indian food.

I learned how to clean an oven, how to make coasters, and the importance of candles, lyscol wipes and a swiffer.

I learned about aerial yoga (which I hope to be certified in next year), and took a class with David Magone from Pranavayu yoga.

I learned that the beach can solve any problem. Ever.

I was already blessed, but this year proved to me that life can get better and better everyday. If we keep our positive attitudes and our dreams alive, we will manifest the most amazing and wonderful life. I am so grateful for my husband, my family (including my very new family), friends and new faces!

Bring it on 26! Let’s see what you have to offer, what obstacles I need to remove or encounter, what positive, blessed and amazing events can happen and where I will end up next. I am so excited to be with you on this journey.

Forever & always,